Well, I think Michael said it correctly today when we woke up…he looked at me and said, “Are you ready to dedicate Harrison again”.  From day one, Harrison has been the Lord’s child.  In fact, I gave Harrison to the Lord, about a year before Harrison was even conceived.  Through my struggle with infertility I had to give EVERY child I was blessed with back to God (even before I had them), because it is only because of Him that we have a son! 

I know that this day should have been filled with joy and excitement, but there was also another side to me as I took my little one to church, I was reminded of what giving Harrison completely to God means!  It means I’m not in control!  If you have read any of my posts in the past, you know that giving God control has been a big hurdle for me, but giving Harrison to God means he is God’s fully and completely.  God can do with Harrison whatever he wants to show His glory…that is scary to me.  Don’t get me wrong, I know that God is perfect, and will work in Harrison exactly the way it needs to be, but sometimes God’s plans are hard to understand.  I think of the thoughts Mary might have had at the foot of the cross as she watched her son die…”Lord, this isn’t what was supposed to happen, he was supposed to be the next king, the ruler over all Israel”, or of John the Baptist’s parents…”God, you gave us this precious boy, and he lived in the wild and was beheaded at the whim of some young girl!”  Now, don’t misunderstand me, I WANT to give Harrison to God, fully, completely…what I’m trying to say is, I want to give him to God no matter what!

I love that my family was able to attend the dedication too, and my Dad performed most of the “service”, which we loved.  We missed the Gray family, who lives all over the country, but know that you were there in spirit!  We are so blessed to have two godly families who will help us as we raise Harrison.  They did so great with us…I can just imagine how fantastic they will do with Harrison!

Here is a little note I wrote to Harrison, and Michael read at his dedication!

Harrison,

 

A few months ago, we adopted you into our family.  We don’t know why God didn’t allow mommy to carry you in her tummy, but we do know that God designed you specifically to be a part of our family.  You were intended from the very start to be with us, and we have prayed for you for many years.  But, our adoption of you is not the most important one you will ever have.  We pray that one day you will be adopted into the family of God, by accepting the gift of Jesus Christ as your Heavenly Father.  And one day, we pray you understand, that we are united by a bond that cannot be broken, not because of the blood that flows through our veins, but because of the blood that flowed down the cross.  

 

We love you baby,

 

Mommy and Daddy